Waiting for the sun
Well, it’s a little after 2am again, and here I am blogging. in just about 10 hours we sit down for the first of “the meetings” with the various really smart people who will share the detailed info and give us the perspective on things. And then over the next night or two some decisions will need to be made.
I’ve done well keeping my mind and spirit occupied with enjoyable things. Tonight my little Sadie Rose was sobbing at sleepytime so I seized the opportunity to snuggle in bed with her and get her to rest easy. About 1:55am she elbowed me in the nose and now I’m here blogging. Those love taps can hurt sometimes. And least it wasn’t the all-too-common kick in the pills. It’s hard to find any humor in pill kicking…even when it’s accidental from a sweet sleeping four-year-old.
I can no longer force the aforementioed speculation out of my front and center. What will I learn today? Routine treament for routine brain tumor? Will I need to find a sweet “Flock Of Seagulls” wig to enhance a thinning coif? Will it be some radical new technology that will make it all go away? Or am I just plain screwed? Questions questions questions flooding into the ping-pong-ball-enhanced mind perched upon my shoulders. What does the cosmos have in the plans for me?
One comfort is that I truly believe I am in very, very good care. The two doctors that are “in charge” of my particular case happen to be the guys that are the top dogs at the Mass General Brain Center. These are very serious dudes. Thier job is saving peoples lives. Talk about job pressure. Yikes.
It’s almost 3am now. My plan is to kick the woodstove back up, wrap myself in a comforter, and put something really tasty on my fancy audiophile headphones. And wait for the sun.
~R
January 7th, 2011 at 5:05 am
Dude.
My thoughts and prayers are with you always, but especially today. I LOVE your perspective and your attitude about this, and judging by that and the docs, and along with my past experience with my Dad, I am believing that YOU will be JUST FINE! The mind is an extremely powerful weapon. Seems like you’re using it perfectly right now. FIGHT IT, NEVER STOP, and KNOW that you are in perfect hands. KEEP DOING WHAT YOU’RE DOING, Dude! YOU ROCK!!!
My mom’s on a “Little Old Church Lady” Prayer Chain of over 70 very reverent people. You’ll be on it starting today. Some powerful stuff has happened that they pray for! I will ask them to pray for your healing, strength, and peace of mind – for all of you. Sending TONS of love and mental hugs to you all!
January 7th, 2011 at 8:00 am
Rob and Kasey,
Good luck today! You will be in our thoughts.
January 7th, 2011 at 10:37 am
Thinking of you today Rob and sending lots and lots of love and positive Vickery vibes your way! All of our fingers are crossed for you.
January 7th, 2011 at 11:45 am
You are in our thoughts and prayers.
January 7th, 2011 at 12:31 pm
Our family is thinking and praying for you today!.. Our prayers are for good news.
May God give you the grace to accept the good news and hopefully not to have to worry about the bad news. Love your story about Sadie and her “football” kick. She must have been trying to Kick the Kancer from your brain. Love to Kasey, Cooper, Sadie, and to your parents Barb and Jim. Love, Marcia and Tony
January 12th, 2011 at 8:36 pm
I haven’t seen you in almost 24 years and after seeing your picture with that beautiful family it just struck me how you haven’t aged a day. Rob since the day we meet in a not so pleasant time for both of us you exuded this crazy ass strenth. Use that strenth now and kick the shit out of this tumor. You are in my thoughts and prayers. And please stay STONG!
January 16th, 2011 at 11:25 am
Rob, You are one of the brothers. We’ll walk out together in our early 90s or so. You and the family at the Foxhole, the sun shining, friends about, views that habitate many many tomorrows. Big bowl of gumbo waiting for you. Keep writing. You are the meaning of strength!